on Saturday, November 8, 2003


HELLO

She kissed him @ 02:31 a.m.

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3 MORE DAYS TILL MY 18 B-DAY on Wednesday, October 29, 2003


my b-day is in 3 dayz............=) don't forget people.

3 MORE DAYS UNTIL MY

18th BIRTHDAY...........;)

She kissed him @ 10:17 a.m.

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on Monday, October 20, 2003


She kissed him @ 11:25 p.m.

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gUeSs WhOz BaCk? on Monday, October 20, 2003


Guess whoz back?............back again........Ali's back, Ali's back..........hey guys, fuck it's been forevea that i haven't wrote in this shit. Well i'm doing good. My birthday is coming up =)and i'll finally be 18!!!!! isn't that just so fucken great!

okay well i need to go, cuz My fren is waitin for me I need to go to Walgreens and get my medication. (refill on some "v")

She kissed him @ 11:14 p.m.

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GOD WHY ME???? on Friday, September 26, 2003


noise: my mami's voice telling my dad my situation

Okay hey people, well i'm feeling pretty SAD & DEPRESSED =( today was a very stressful and painful day!! u guys want to know what i went through today?...sure? okay here it goes........

i woke up around 8:30 a.m. i knew i wasn't going to skool, so do my things and then my fren Anita and her baby are outside my house. we talk for a while then she leaves. well i start gettin ready cuz i have a doctors appt. and shit. so i'm ready and we leave.

At the doctors office the nurse is waitin for me and she starts checkin and shit.......and she tell me that i'm like a yellowish color and i say "I KNOW" and then she starts talkin to my mami and my mami tells her that i'm weaker and weaker and that i don't fall-asleep like around 3:00 3:30 in the morning everyday. so there talkin for fucken days.so yea they put me in the room (mine...cuz i have all kinds of monkey and fairy pictures in there) so it's my room. and while i'm sittin there every nurse that passes through there say hello and ask how i'm doing and shit. whatever.....

It's 11:30 a.m. i'm feeling hella dizzy and tired. i lay down for a while......10 minutes later my doctor comes in (which let me tell u is hella cute)........=) and tells me that i only have 6 1/2 % of blood cells in my body!!!!!!!! so as u know ME........i start to cry and so does my mami. so the doctors starts explaing why and the whole shit. so after my mami says "how can she develop more blood cells"?, doctors stays quite and says NOTHING. so the DR. Kent say well for now someone has to donate blood to u. so my mami does. dude it was fucken 8 tubes of blood.. for half an hour i had a needle suck in me with blood.

Then after the whole tube blood thingie, i'm hella exhausted and feeling dizzy. so whatever. they check my profile and DR. Kent says i'm doing a little better then last time i was there, which was 3 wks. ago, so that means i'm not doing any better. (he just told me that so i won't get all fucked up) so they kick me out of the room, so DR. Kent and my mami can talk alone and for him to expain the situation. they swear i can't listen the door is only half way close........................so i hear them talkin and my mami is just askin why?, why? why? (sniff, sniff) while they are talk..........i start to cry cuz it knowin all this shit is happenin to me!!!!!!

i ask GOD "when will all this be over?" i hear half of the converstation and if u guys were there to hear what i heard........u guys wouldn't know how to react to it........so they came back, i wipe my tears hella fast.. my mami holds me very tight and kisses my forehead. i feel her pain and i hold back my tears. they give more PRESCRPTION to take!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......=(

so my mami.............is just talkin about my 18th b-day and what she's going to do and stuff like that. i smile but i know that i hidin everything. she tries to keep my mind from everything, by talkin to me and shit like that. well we went to the mall and shit...........on the way back to our house...... i ask my mami if i was going to DIE? she looked at me.......but inside those eyes i saw FEAR, SADDNESS, CONFUSSION, PAIN. her eyes got watery and she responded NO, with a soft/painful tone....she then hugs me and i hold my tears once again!!! so off we go again!!!!!!!!!!

at home i go stright to my room and lock myself in there...i lay down i start askin why? and why? and just wonder and think back when i was in middle school how active i was.....like i was in the dance team...cheeleadin squad........drama class......ice skatin.........kick boxin........and softball/soccer....and i was hella sick then now. and now i'm NOTHIN. yea don't get me wrong i'm a hyper, outgoing, curious person, who likes to help others... but what happen to me? i feel different..

well u guys it's pretty late and i'm feelin tired, i guess i should let u guys go.

just to make sure......maybe some of u guys might be confusse of what i'm takin about..............but ummmm......ummmmmmmm

I'M SICKLE CELL ANEMIC, AND I HAVE APPENDIX CANCER!!!!!

yea.................shocken but true..don't feel sorry...it's just part of life!!!! but right now i'm to an extent that........any day now i can end up in the Hospital again for a month or so like before!!!!!!!!! i'm just hopin that my GUARDIAN ANGELS are lookin down and realize that i don't ever take nothing for granted and i cherish everythink bit i have.......so plz don't let me miss out on life ITSELF!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE U MAMI, BROTHER JOSE, SISTER ELIZABETH, PAPI, ALEX, MILAGROS, MICHELLE, SERGIO, AND THE REST OF THE PALACIOS (PAPI SIDE) FAMILY AND ARANDA WONG FAMILY (MAMI SIDE) AND MOST AND FOREMOST ABUELITA (GRANDMA).......cuz u GUYS HAVE ALWAYS TAUGHT ME TO KEEP MY HEAD UP HIGH, AND CHALLENGE THE WORLD EVEN IF IT GAVE ME THE HARDEST SHIT......LIKE NOW. AND CUZ ABUELITA U SHOWED ME TO BE MYSELF AND NOT FRONT SOMETHING I'M NOT.......MAMI CUZ U & PAPI RAISED ME WITH THAT DIGNITY AND WELL MANNERED MORALS.. THANK YOU AND I'M GLAD I HAVE U BY MY SIDE.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry it took me forever.........but through out this entry i was cryin so it was pretty hard for me to see the screen..................thank u for takin the time and readin this.............everyone "I LOVE U"

She kissed him @ 12:23 a.m.

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huh no on Sunday, September 21, 2003


HELLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO =)

She kissed him @ 09:57 a.m.

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=) =) =) =) =) on Friday, September 19, 2003


so well yea anyways..........how is everyone doing? good i'm hopin. well i got my senior pictures today.......i guess there okay. but yea. today at work "KYLE" was pickin on me. dude abby gurl check his ass before i do. =) oh my god Kyle, Kristen (some new chick), and i had the wiredest conversttion ever. dude that gurl is sooooooooooooo BIOSEXUAL.....damn i was like huh? she hella threw herself and it was so funny cuz i was just playin her game. ABBY U BETTER CHECK THAT BRISCO CUZ SHE WAS "ALL" UP ON KYLE'S DICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..... OH YEA. she was hella sayin she wanted Kyle and shit like dat. but then i was like "gurl u better watch out cuz that's abby's man. Kyle and i had a stupid ass converstaion.

Me: damn, abby is a really cute gurl, if i was a guy i would hella date her and shit like that

Kyle: no abby is ALL mine and u ain't going to get none of that even if u were a guy!!!!!!! (with a stright face and attitude)

Me: Kyle.......u have the chance but u won't take it......and if i was a guy u would have fucken competiton.. and i would NOT WASTE TIME LIKE U!!!

Kyle: whatever ALMA U AIN'T GOING TO GET ABBY SHE'S ALL MINE.........MINE!!!

damn i was like fuck chill..........so abby baby there u go Kyle is just playin hard to get so he does like u lot's.

but this gurl Kristen or whatever is a fucken Freak..........she can get down when it comes to having hot, passionate sex...........i told her i was BICOURIUS and she was like have u found someone to fullfill ur fantasies..........i was like no..........but i'm lookin... then she gave this SMILE =)

dude before i forget she though Kyle was BISEXUAL....lol... dude i was laughin for days. but yea she's a cute gurl......... but not my type. okay well i'm going now cuz were going to go catch a flick with some frens. so talk ya'll laterz......................xoxo

She kissed him @ 10:34 p.m.

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FUCK HATERS THAT CAN'T BACK THERE SHIT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! on Thursday, September 18, 2003


i hate LITTE "BITCHES" that talk there shit but then can't back it up. i mean fuck if ur going to talk ur shit, and then that person conforts u.......dude have some fucken dignity and back it up and not look like a litte "TRICK BITCH" =) dude i'm one PISSED MEXICAN/CHINESE gurl. damn i hate fucken haters to the fullest.

and i know that ur going to read this shit...........and if u have something to say let me know cuz U KNOW WHO U ARE.................i don't give a FUCK if i get fired but at least i know that i backed my shit up and i'm down for my shit when it comes down to it!!!!!!!!! just handle it... =) i hate playin games.......espically games u can't play..........but like i always say "TWO CAN PLAY THAT GAME, BUT ONE ALWAYS PLAYS IT BETTER" and in dis case it's me BITCH HOE. like i told u when i'm mad u don't fuck with me cuz i am "THE BITCH".

okay well i let all that anger out i'm going to go drink a tea my mami made me cuz i'm stresstin off skool love u all xoxo

She kissed him @ 10:22 p.m.

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on Tuesday sept. 16 2003


hey people i'm just here in class chillian and trying to do some work cuz i am fucken bored............"hella".okay well damn i am so tired, i haven't been to sleep since Saturday. dude check this out Sunday i walked from Valley Fair ALL THE WAY HOME........do u know how fucken far that shit is? well let me tell u it's hella far. okay well i need to start doing some thing for class so i will blog later okay.



She kissed him @ 10:45 a.m.

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i guess..............????????? on Monday, September 15, 2003


well people sorry i haven't updated that much. it's just that i've been HELLA BUSY with skool and shit. well damn fuck...............skool is pain in the ass espically when u attend a fucken PRIVATE CATHOLIC skool. to way many prick ass RULES. dude this yr. is the worst cuz our teacher is such a bitch. she hella changed all the rules and got even more strict. stupid ass licker. i mean........she only made me take out my tongue ring.....and she thinks (THINKS) i don't work any more. but BULL SHIT.......i only can work weekends cuz my dad. fuck when she said i had to quit i started cryin cuz i don't want to. (abby should know) =( but other then it's coo.

dude.............DEVIN UR SUCH A PRICK AND I HOPE THAT U GET CAUGHT WITH SALINA........YEA, BASTARD "SALINA" WE ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPEN ON SATURDAY AT THE PARTY. DON'T TRIP THOUGH U FUCKED WITH MY COUSIN'S FEELINGS......AND U FUCKED UP NOW I'LL U GOT TO DO IS WAIT FOR WHAT'S NEXT WITH U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GENESIS WILL FIND OUT SOONER OR LATER AND NOT BY US.....BUT BY TAPE.

SALINA.........U A HOE.....AND DAMN DAT'S PRETTY FUCKEN GRODY. LIKE I STEPPED UP TO U TODAY IN SKOOL AND CHECKED U.... THAT'S SHIT AIN'T NUTTIN.......WATCH WHEN I CATACH U ON THE STREETS WITH BY URSELF OR WITH FRENS SLUT!!!!!! =) FROM THE GECKO I TOLD U DON'T FUCK WITH GENESIS OR MY FAMILY. SO TIRCK BITCH BE SCARED.........OH NO WAIT R U GOING TO GO CRY TO UR DADDY.........GO AHEAD TELL HIM I DON'T MIND BEING ON PROBATION AGAIN......AT LEAST HE'LL FIND OUT HE HAS A SLUT, TRICK, DICK SUCKIN DAUGTHER WHO LIKES TO MAKE VIDEOS. OKAY SWEETIE LOVE U AND IF U HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY U JUST LIVE 3 HOUSES DOWN........KNOCK ON MY DOOR AND WE CAN HANDLE THIS.... =)

okay sorry guys i just had to let some things out cuz now a days bitches like that like to brake up good couples and FUCK for populatry and shit like that. okay well i'm down with all this shit.........any comments just tag me... pretty soon i will post up pictures so u can check out and talk shit...........just kiddin.

xoxo

She kissed him @ 04:47 p.m.

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"Alex"...................IS OUT!!!!!!! =) on Wednesday, September 10, 2003


i just got to say that "ALEX" IS OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my gosh do u know how happy i am? like fucken hella massive happy, like i can jump up and down and all around for days and yrs. to come. Damn i'm so HAPPY! well today i went to take my Senior pic. and let me tell u they came out CUTE (not to be all fucken concited about it) it just the fact that the guy was hella makin me laugh so i smiled in all! =)...........i also dyed my hair....all just one color. they came out cute. well yea so yea.

well guess what? in skool i'm doing good i only need half of the credits done i'll be done by Late December. well ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yea i gotta go to work now so i'll talk to u later!!!!!!!!!!

She kissed him @ 04:24 p.m.

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quick HeLlO on Tuesday, September 9, 2003


hey i just wanted to say a quick hello for a minute. sorry i haven't updated it's just that i'm hella busy w/ skool and more fucken skool that i don't have a chance to really SIT DOWN AND JUST "CHILL" well hey everybody =) well i got to get back and doing my homework. luv u all xoxo

She kissed him @ 12:06 a.m.

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i'm at skool =) on Wednesday, September 3, 2003


hey people well i'm just here at skool, fuckn killing time cuz i'm sooooo bored and yea =) well YES i just found out that i need a small amount of credits to GRADUATE that's fucken hella tight. but anyways i'm tryin to do some adult ed so i can get the fuck out of my skool A.S.A.P. u know what i mean? well yea dat's ALMA

so yesterday CHRIS called me tryin to put me in check, tryin to tell me that i can't go out saturday and shit like that!!!!!! dude his in fucken ARIZONA and still he TIRES to have me in check...........ain't noone going to have ALMA IN CHECK........espically some guy =) don't think so idiot. okay well hey ABBY GURL *hugs and kissses* i miss work for some prick ass reason....don't ask why?.......cuz not even myself i know dat answer.

well okie dokie people i need to do some work cuz....then m teacher will shit bricks XOXO

She kissed him @ 12:10 p.m.

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hey quick hello =) on Tuesday, September 2, 2003


hey just wanted to say hello. i just off skool and i'm going to get something to munch on cuz yea. well abby gurl hey this HELLO IS FOR U =) XOXO

She kissed him @ 03:50 p.m.

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I HATE FUCKEN PEOPLE WHO TRY TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!! on Monday, September 1, 2003


Dude let me open dis entrie with speakin my mind =) >br>
Okay first of all, i can be the BIGGEST BITCH ON THIS FUCKEN PLANET. I can stand people who think they know it all and a bag of chips!!!! okay well at work i have someone who really got on my last fucken nerve (not sayin any names) and let me tell u something;

U AIN'T GETTIN PAID MUCH FOR U TO DO TELL ME WHAT TO DO, AND I AIN'T GETTIN PAID MUCH ETIHER TO HEAR UR SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!

if ur not manger, plz save ur words.............better yet ur breath cuz i ain't going to listen to ur shit. it takes a lot to get me mad, annoyed etc. but for some reason that person got to that point. and yes, when i'm mad i speak my mind and i'm going to let u know what i feel and think. and guess what i did. so that person knows who they are. other then that, FUCK YOU AND FUCK THE HORSE U RODE IN!!!!

okay so by now u know that work has been really HECTIC for me. dude especially when u have an ex-maneger being mad and throwin shit everywhere cuz his a regular crew memeber. oh well "LIFE IS A BITCH THEN U DIE" get over it and just deal with it. u know? well yea my gurl abby is back.....damn i missed that NICHE for days =) so i hope things get better. well today abby and i worked doubled time.........cuz it's labor day fuck we had no clue until luis told us at Camden. fuckem massive over time for us. yes yes!!!!!!!!!!!! =) well yea our GIA "pImP" is quittin cuz his brother is maneger for some place and he offered our GIA "pImP" a better thing.............awwwwwwww that's our boy. he will be missed lot's!! =( but abby and i and couple other peps are going to chill with GIA "pImP" abby and i trained him.....sniff sniff......=(

well ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...................yea hehehahahehe on Saturday everyone who works at Coldstone worked....i mean everybody. RYAN, KYLE, NATALIE, AND I made up a new song. hella funny. okay well i'm gettin kind of tired and i have school tommorow so gotta go. xoxo

She kissed him @ 10:47 p.m.

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Damn sooooooo Tired =( on Friday, August 29, 2003


music: Don't Speak (no doubt)

HeY people! well i 'm just here at home killin time till my frens come and scoop me up. I'm going out to-nite to some club up in Frisco. i still have to do my hair, but it's coo cuz we ain't leavin till around 11:00 or something like that. My frens are coming to my casa to get ready and shit like that........u know =) my mami wanted to throw a fit with me bout Chris "SHE TRIED" but she didn't cuz i payed no attition to her. i know she got ass hurt, but i wasn't going to let her ruin my nigh, the only reason she tried is becuz she knows that when i go out i'm a FUCKEN FLIRT!!!!!!!!!!!! =) oh well, it's like i'm hurthin people by it. right? right.

Okay so thinks with Chris, let put it this way TEARS TEARS TEARS, ummmmmmmmmmmm yea i honestly don't know what happen i didn't even really have the chance to say goodbye. =( but oh well he shall return.

hmmmmmmmmmm ABBY and ALLEN are gone. they left yesterday to thier road trip. i hella miss them. Well i'm worried cuz when i care forsome i worry. But i'll i know is that they are in my prayers every nite when i go to sleep!!!!!!!!!! so today when i was going to skool i saw my fren Devin, damn i haven't seen that foo in ages. come to know that he goes to the same Chruch i do!!!!!!!!!! i thouhg i saw him before but i never put much attition to him cuz HELLO it is CHURCH. i have respect for that. so we talked and we catch up on things. WOW... he knew a lot of people i knew......and that wasnt' good cuz he knew Chris! and they don't like each other cuz of some stupic fucken reason. (some taggin thing). so i told him my history with chris and i and all he did was nodd his head and said " ALMA U CAN DO WAY BETTER THEN THAT PIECE OF SHIT" i just stood silent. oh well. but anyways were going out on Saturday to catch a movie or something. But i doubt i'll go cuz dis weekend is "BOULAVARD NIGHTS" downtown and there is going to be hella fucken cursin. so yea. you'll see out there with my frens and cousins.

okay well i got to finish some homework, so i don't have to worry about it over the weekend!! =) so i'm cuttin this string on this kite short and sendin ur way!!!!!!!!! xoxo

She kissed him @ 09:29 p.m.

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SAD SAD TEARY DAY =( on Thursday, August 28, 2003


well ummmmmmmmmmm..........yea i'm lost and my fingers fucken hurt cuz i've been writin all fucken day!!! well my whole body is achin cuz i'm tired. i haven't slept very well for the past few dayz!!! okay well i gotta go cuz i need to do more homework. xoxo

She kissed him @ 10:37 p.m.

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First day of skool =) on Wednesday, August 27, 2003


well today was the first day of skool, it was alright! a lot of new gurlz but i guess i'll get used to them. (i mean it is a ALL GURL CATHOLIC PRIVATE SKOOL) they looked snobby and shit like that, but they can suck my nuts if i had some. well like always we got shit loads of homework due Friday. fucken niche ass teacher (abby gurl that one goes out to you "NICHE") well thank goddness i only have about 28 more criedts to finish. hopefully i'll be done by Late December and then i cross stage in June!! =) well in order to accomplish that i need to do shit loads of homework and stay up late night. i know i can do it, even if it causes stress i'll do it. Well as for work, damn i work mostly everyday and i think i'm going to talk to Luis about that cuz if i don't have days off i will hella go into Nervous Breakdown. it happen once it can happen again. so will see how that goes.

i honestly did not want to go to work today!! =( cuz i was hella tired and i knew i had to come home and do shit loads of homework. i was going to call in and be BLUNT and say that i was tired and couldn't go. i mean why fucken BEAT AROUND THE BUSH dude just be BLUNT WITH UR SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =) but i didn't cuz i didn't want Luis to think that i'm not capable of being a good worker or responsible!!!!!!!! so i went. Before i went to work i took a 15 minute nap, damn that felt so good it seemed for ever though. but then my little sister woke me up so i can get ready and go to work. i'm tellin you i'm just a UNIQUE LITTLE CAMPER. i just really hope that i can go through this yr. and handle work and skool. =(

well tommorow is the BIG DAY, i go see Chris before he leaves to Arizona. i dunno what is going to happen, but whatever does then it does. i'm just going to let NATURE TAKE IT'S COURSE!!!! =) if we talk about him and myself then we do if we don't then we don't. I'm not gettin my hopes high. but i do hope something is said and i can realize or something.

this is going out to a different CHRIS, hey ur a very very sweet guy. i'm really thinkin about what u were tellin me last couple of nites. i think it would be the best for me to get AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!1 =) much xoxo

well yea people, that's me and me only. abby ur lust with kyle damn gurl all i gotta to say ur a "NICHE" =0

well i'm cuttin this string on this kite short and sendin it ur way with much love. xoxo

She kissed him @ 10:20 p.m.

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THUG LOVE on Tuesday, August 26, 2003


Hey just wanted to say that i will blog later sorry i haven't updated it, it's just dat i've been working and haven't had a chance to do it. but right now i'm going to take my little sister to get a manicure cuz she starts Middle skool tommorow. alright den. xoxo

She kissed him @ 05:43 p.m.

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FUCK U "CHRIS" on Sunday, August 24, 2003


music: "someone to hold"

this is going out to Chris i'll i got to say is "FUCK YOU" and dat u should listen to ur frens cuz i've put up with to much of ur FUCKEN SHIT FOR 4 YRS!!!!!!!!!!!! and ur frens are right, ain't no otha brezzie gonna do dat. i'm glad ur frens r on my side. i hope u really think bout what u said and i know ur going to see dis and when u do call me!!!!!!! =( xoxo

She kissed him @ 07:12 p.m.

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WIDE AWAKE =) and just got home and bout to bonce again on Sunday, August 24, 2003
noise: family chattin

music: FREESTYLE (hell yea)

Hey well FUCK there's hella motha fucken crusin down town. i just just got back from drivin around, cuz we had to pee but it's hell coo. Damn GOD is with me, cuz i'm drivin dis nice ass DENALI my aunts it's loaded and i don't have a Liscence but she don't care and there's hell cops down town and i have all my cousins wit me and i'm over here with the music full blast and yet don't stopped!!!!!!! Well anyways it was coo though cuz some guys were "TRYING" to act all good and shit cuz they though we wanted to Holla, (huh nah). so we went crusin around and just whatever and then we stopped cuz some guys ask us to pull over so we can meet. so we did. Nah, don't get me wrong they were hella fine, but i'm stright. then i saw one of my frens that i haven't seen for almost 4 yrs. and damn his is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FINE!!!!!!!! =) well he didn't know who i was cuz let me tell u when i go out, i totally dress up and the whole shit. but yea i had fun especially drivin dat truck my tia let me borrow for tonite. coo coo.i got pictures that i took of my cousins and i (and Truck, i'll post up later)

Well i was crusin there were some BITCHES hatin on my cousins Genesis and Divine (twins) so they started to talk there shit and the got all fucken crazy and got off their car and walked were Genesis was and talked shit. Oh hell nah, i put dat shit on park and was like "WHAT THE FUCK BITCH" cuz when it comes to family i will get CRAZZZZZZZZZZY!!!! so they though they were hard core bitches. but all they did was talk but no action. so whatever i drove off agian. then my frens called me on the celly and said if i wanted to meet up? so we did and damn it was MASSIVE cuz we were rollin hella deep. but of course u will always get those DUMD ASS SANK HOE BITCHES hatin on u and who is wit u. so yea well i needs to cut this string shrt and send dis kite ur way cuz were headin back down town and meet up with some frens. xoxo

She kissed him @ 02:12 a.m.

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mami's b-day =) on Saturday, August 23, 2003
Noise: hella people going back in forth Music: "Take a chance on me"

Hey well damn it's my mami's b-day on we're havin a BIGGO MASSIVE partie!!!!!! family came down form Fresno, Los Banos and Mercede oh yea, Chicago also. Well i hardly talked to half of them. Talk bout big ass family from my mami's side!!!!! "dAnGeR" so yea. well i don't work today, but i did work all week. Yesterday it was hella busy, i mean shit loads of people would just pop up out of no-where. then we had 2 parties at once, dat shit was so STRESSIN =(

ABBY, hey gurl i HAVE NO REGRETS TELLIN U WHAT I TOLD U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =) So let me tell u guys what happen yesterday to my cousins and I. So we went to go pick up my Twin cousins on the south side, so it' bout 5 of us in the Expedtion and while i was drivin there was dis homeless askin for money, so i flip a BITCH and i go back to give him $5, then my cousin Romeo says "almita that guy just got in dat nice ass car!" i was like what the fuck. so i flip another bitch and we follow dis "SO CALLED HOMELESS" and to find out dat he had a nice ass car and was like a bussiness man. dude i was sooooooooooooooo pissed off. but dat's what i get for being so Ginuwine!! but oh well. so yea crazy shit huh. well i'm pretty fucken pissed right now, cuz my aunt told my twin cousins dat they couldn't stay here for skool, they both got GRANTS for San Fran. skool. but no she says dat it's to far from their home and some bull shit.

well i'm cutiin dis string shrt and sendin this kite ur way i need to get ready. xoxo

She kissed him @ 01:38 p.m.

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SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKEN TIRED!!! on Friday, August 22, 2003


well all dis FUCKEN week i've worked!! yesterday i worked double shift fuck man talk about being FED up wit peoples shit. well ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i'm just tired. dude talk about being SLOW TO DA FULLEST!!!!! i closed with Allen, Micheal (abby's dream guy hehehaha)j/k and i. dude throught out the whole FUCKEN NITE i was trianin 2 new people and helplin the line. i was going back and forth oh yea and to top it off i'm sick =( don't get me wrong, i'm gettin paid for it but fuck not to be ur fucken SLAVE. well some shit is going around work and it's buggin me ABBY U AREADY KNOW WHAT IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so yea well i guess i'm cuttin dis string and sendin ur way!! xoxo

She kissed him @ 12:20 a.m.

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i'm alright on Tuesday, August 19, 2003


hey well today i woke alright. actually i woke up thinkin bout Chris and all the shit dat happen last nite. but anyways ABBY, ALLEN, KATHI hey guys just wanted to say hello. So it's 3:36 p.m. and i tired cuz i just finish cleanin my house cuz my is sooooo a "NeAt fReAk" so u know how mother's get. but damn i really don't feel like going to work cuz i am tired and i haven't slept good!!! why? cuz i think i have a sleepy disorder =( oh man. well Abby when u going to do my mami's cakie? cuz i want to help u. kay kay!!! Allen for the name of god stop makin piles of shit, dat's hella funny and i don't think people like that shit hehehahhah. Kathi hey i wrote u a letter and i hope u like it and u REALLY THINK ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

fuck i don't even want to start skool. u guys hold on...........my mami is callin moi. fuck she still bitchin bout the house. anyways i got to cut the string on this kite and send it your way! xoxo

She kissed him @ 03:34 p.m.

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the best thing is leavin =( on Tuesday, August 19, 2003
feeling very sad and tearin

I just finish talkin to Chris and he just told me dat he's leavin to Arizona for couple of wks. or months!!! When he told me dis i felt like my whole was empty and i went BLANK, my eyes got so watery dat i couldn't see. Fuck why does dis happen to me? i swear through the whole convo i was cryin this is it:

Chris: Alma, hey babe i gotta tell u something Me: yea, i know cuz u called and u sound different, so what's sup? Chris: so how u been? howz work and all? ummmm.....yea let me know what's old and new? Me: Chris dude, cut the bullshit what's sup? fuck i know u gotz to say something. Chris: well ummmmmmmm.......hmmmmmmmmmm......i leavin to Arizona for couple of wks. maybe even months to visit my sister Me: (at dis point i was already cryin) stood silent sniff sniff Chris: hey,hey, say something what's wrong? Alma? hey Me: oh r u coming back? or what. chris why do u to dis to me NOW? Chris: i didn't call u to argue, i called u to tell u something Me: fuck it whatever

well yea that was only half of our convo. but he wants to chill i think next Thrusday or something. but fuck i'm so hurt by all dis, that it's hard for me to sleep cuz i'm just thinkin bout it. sniff sniff =( sometimes i ask myself why do these type of things happen to me and for some fucken reason i don't get a stupid answer. Now when he leaves all i'm going to do is think bout him and just yea. but hey things happen for a reason!!!! right? i sooooooooooooo feel like shit right now (soon after i found out). now i have to wait till i see him so i can tell him everything from head to toe, and make him know dat if he wants me to WAIT I CAN!! he did ask me to go with him, but i have skool and all. but i will leave thinkin bout every word i told him. abby, allen, kathi dude guys c'mon HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!! u guys give so much good advice and i care and luv u guys so much dat i just need something. i'm so NAIVE, and INNOCENT when it comes to dis things. yea maybe i seem different but to tell u the truth guys i'm a very SENSETIVE, EMOTIONAL, NAIVE, GULLABLE, AND SOOOOO SLOW when it comes to frens, relationships and anything. u be suprise if u all really knew what's sup!!!!!!!!!!!! well i hope dat through time i can keep my mind off if and just wait. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I FUCKEN HATE DIS SHIT why? shit dude why? well cuttin dis string short and sendin it ur way............sniff sniff =(

She kissed him @ 12:23 a.m.

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today was WiEeRd on Monday, August 18, 2003


First before i begin i just want to thank my gurl "ABBY" for this wonderfurl webbie. Thnx gurl much luv xoxo.

Well today was a Wierd ass day. well i went to work early cuz Luis called me. well so i got there and before i left my casa CHRIS him me called me yes he called me.(stupid boi). i didn't want to hear shit at all so i hung up. now u should all know Chris is this guy who i've been with for 4 yrs. on and off. anyways so work was coo, "bArKiE mArKiE"(MARK) was in a happy mood cuz he was going to get some hehehaha =) the reason Natanut and i call him that is cuz his always bitchin. so Allen was makin piles of shit with the whoop cream fucken funny. laterz dat nite Kathi stopped by (hey hun, xoxo) and was chillian there for a quick minute. So yea dat was work pretty much.

I got home and my little sister (she's back people yes, she's back. yay yay)tells me that Chris called. so i said whatever. i called him back and ask why was that he called and he was actin hella fucken stupid so i started gettin fucken mad at the bastard so i hung up.grrrrrrrrr!!!!then he was playin fucken little games like always and he called me a "BITCH"!!! now people when u call Alma a bitch hells breaks motha fucken lose, and u better start diggin a hole so fucken deep and HIDE!!!! i didn't react to it at the moment cuz i was to shock cuz this was his first time callin me a bitch so i stood silent, and instead of gettin mad i got ass hurt.sniff sniff =( so i just didn't say anything and took his shit for a while. i got tired of it and told him i was sleepy and we hung up. Dude i was sooooooooo butt hurt that i started cryin =( hmmm. well i'll i can say is that if i took his shit for so long i can still take it. okay fuck all dis. today was my "TeLetUbBiE"(hunyen) last day she's so cute. she will me missed. damn i 4-got to go get my keys from liz (my fren). well i'm gettin tired. well i'm cuttin the string from this kite and sendin it ur guy's way. ABBY gurl thax, u did a kick ass job. xoxo

She kissed him @ 10:31 p.m.

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